"what is it aout business trips??"
I get scared about him going on business trips because that when the lying starts, and the sneaking off to go out drinking. If I have asked him straight out if he is drinking, he has made me feel like i'm a sico b@tch and then when he is finished drinking I get the calls at 2-3am telling me he has plans for me, there is no way i'm ever getting his money, talking all sorts of very hurtful nonsense. That is why i am afraid, I don't like hearing it, it makes me feel worse then I do now...and it is getting to the point where I am not going to deal with it anymore...i will leave and it is hard because I love him so much, he is my longtime best friend.