i might be showing strength but.....
i feel horrible inside..i didnt want it to come to this..i rather he had gotten caught or lost his job or something else pushed him against the wall...i hate that we have to go to court back and forth and back and forth..i think its hard because if it happened another way, he couldnt blame me...or my kids couldnt blame me, or his family couldnt blame me... i know im not to blame, but they arent seeing it that way.
why do fell like the bad guy?
also, what if this is his bottom and he does stop using..how would i know becaue there is no contact between us...can i ever adjust the RO to say that there can be limited phone contact??? as i am writing this i am thinking to myself i really have a deep rooted problem..i cannot let go... i just cant...i cant start only thinking of myself and my kids....how do undo your thinking??? meetings, therapy??? keep reading co-dependant no more???