I hope you call DV today, because in my county they would send an advocate to go to court with you just to bolster you up, be with you and help you emotionally.
I chose to go to my domestic battery court by myself but I made an appmt right before I went and she told me....just do not look at him, look anywhere else but do not look at him. Don't let him catch your eyes.
I followed her directions and it really helped...I know for sure because it wasn't the first time I was there for that, sadly to say!
And, yes, he did keep trying to get my attention.
My daughter was older, I took her with me. Maybe you have a friend or someone who can go with you for moral support?
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