((((((teke)))))))
Don't let him do this to you anymore. I think this goes way beyond drugs and addiction. I know he's an addict but he's also an abuser, plain and simple. I lived with one for 25 years, too. It sucks!
I have been reading a book called "Why Does He Do That? Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men" by Lundy Bancroft. There is a chapter in there about the ways that abusers make women think they have gone crazy. It's just another control tactic that he is using against you.
PLEASE get some help. Life is too short to live that way.
We love you!!!!!