Teke.
What decision are your struggling with? What decision do you feel comfortable with? Do you feel comfortable deciding you deserve to be safe? Can you take a step to ensure that?
You don't have to let go or solve the entire situation completely today. Rome wasn't built in a day. You don't have to call the police. But can you do one small thing that works towards a solution?
Letting go doesn't happen all at once. However, you deserve to be in a safe and sane place in order to plan your next step - whatever that is. Can you get yourself somewhere that the environment is not so toxic so you can think logically? Didn't you just leave and go stay at your moms for a few days last week? Can you do that again?