Originally Posted by
drainedwife 
do i still love him.....?????? how do you know after everything that you've been through with this person, through the lies and deceit, the abuse, the drug induced behavior...how do you know what love is anymore??? I guess i still love the person he used to be.....but all that is changed right now....
That's a powerful question and a powerful realization that I've asked myself and thought at one time before too. For me, I also loved the man my exabf used to be, not the man he was now. It was a hard realization as well because I thought .........really thought I was still IN LOVE with him.
Sometimes making no decision is still making a decision. You don't have to file for divorce right now if you're not sure, but do protect yourself please. My thoughts and prayers are with you.