(((((cinders)))))
Wow. You put it so well. You really captured how I have felt at many times over the last several years.
I know the process is painful but keep going cinders....I know you will...
I really think that the load gets lighter...and the sun shines a little brighter...with time. Be patient and loving with yourself, okay? You're recovery and growth in the last several months is inspiring.
Much love...