Teke, I just asked my husband how long it would take us to get to Atlanta. He said 12 hours and asked me if that is what I am going to do?!
I can identify with you far more than you know, not exactly the same, but my ex love was a promiscous *****-monger. I never knew who had been in our bed etc etc. One day after we had spent a week working very hard for a clean party with hayrides etc, when I showed up there was a woman tied up upstairs. He wasn't the one who did it, but he let her stay all day laying out in the sun nude and when I said she had to leave, he told me to leave because "there weren't going to be any hassles at the party." She spent the night after I left and told me she would do him anytime she could.
It hurt worse than the alcoholism and verbal/physical abuse.
For real girlfriend, I can't make the drive, but buses, greyhounds are not so bad....I really believe there are many of us who would welcome you for a vacation.
AFTER you have seen your counselor and when you are ready.
Maybe I am over-identifying but I just don't see how you can stay in that house without it costing you dearly.
I admit, I am emotional about this.
many hugs,
Tena