The closest Alanon group is 1 hour away, it would have to be weekends to be able to make them. You are right though posting here makes me feel like I am not so alone. He is at home sleeping off the past nights drunk at "wherever he was at" friends house. He wont tell me much anymore, just bits and pieces of the night, parts that sound like they were actually visiting and being good, all night. He tried to tell me that his stomach was upset and he is going through withdrawls from my attention. Like all this is my fault. He isn't home, nor can I barely stomach to touch him when he has been drinking. He is trying to make himself look so committed to us. The only one he is fooling is himself.