Does it suck right now? YEP. Big time
((((((DD))))))
I so remember feeling this and getting to the same point, "if he can not accept responsibility and continues to blame me, theres nothing more I can do"
Resignation
And yes, its not a happy place to be. Unfortunatly, oftentimes our A's leave us no alternative.
It felt to me, like it was HIS way or the highway. I preferred to make that journey as I could not live nor accept life on his terms.
Baby, steps, I had heard it here and elsewhere many times before, the resignation to accept the things I could not change was my first one.
I held on to furniture for a long time before I took my next one. The enormity of the first one had to settle in.
Hold to the furniture sweetie, and give yourself whatever time you need.
Peace