My gf and I back together..she sober
I work my program, she works her...no emmeshing
The wreackage ?...I can make list that could go on forever.
Somedays are better than others, but it's like paradize compare to
the crazy drunken monster. it's not perfect..but oh well.
it was a bit rough at first becuase, becuase she wanted to revert back to
old habits. I just apply boundaries and know that she wasn't totally well
I don't belive she can comperhend how I feel about a lot of things.
I don't expect her to. I don't think she can repair the wreakage
the occured..becuase it didn't happened over nite. And if I was
waiting to be happy until she dose so...I'm fooling myself.
I still have to do my part, because bascially I just shut down sometimes.
I need time alone sometimes. Bascailly my life dosn't evolve around her's
There's communication and it makesense..simply becuase she's not wacked
out of her mind and she's present .... not the disease.
As long as she's sober and working a program..it's workable.
She's been sober for 8 years before and there program in her somewhere.
it's just the 3 years of wreackage when the monster showed up
that kind of blew my mind.lol
The relationship is a trip...life is a trip.
seriouly..lol I must be so enlighten that I can comprehend that forgiveness is
not a requirement. I can simply choose to let go or live in the moment or
live beyound the pain.
Wow..i having an ahha moment...I remember saying this to her when we
first met..."it's like a canni store....it's like a canni store"
What it means is...I have chioces and there's all kinds of flavor in a canny
store.