Pandoras Box, in Greek mythology opens the question of why there is evil in this world
I was gonna tack on to my "What the hell was he thinking,," thread, but I decided a "new discovery" deserves a new thread.
So, guess what I learned yesterday?,,Ok, all you VETERNS stop gigling now,,,,
The consequences of breaking your own boundries.
Aside from the obvious one, it opens the door for more manipulation.
Seeing him yesterday, opened the Pandora's Box
Should have stuck to my boundry
In the end, it forced me to look at the BIGGEST codie question of them all
Why do I do the things I do, and feel the way I feel
Spent last night obsessing about my A. How did he do at the interview? What if he gets this job, miracuosly get "cured" and lives happily ever after with someone other than ME!!! All the time knowing being almost right back at square one was on ME!! I put myself in that position, the familiar "twisting" of entwining myself with my A. Full blown disease back in business. Almost felt like I was back in day one. No matter what I did, how I tried to take my mind off of it, I was CONCIOUS of the consequesnces of breaking my own boundry. And as usual, my obsession stopped my forward progression.
What a dope I was. Here I thought that boundry was for my A.
So, why did I see him yesterday?
~Gulp~ Cause I'm not grasping how to make it all about ME!!!
Any enlightenment would be greatly appreciated
And how did I feel about seeing him yesterday?
Reading what I wrote, I tried to convince myself i was numb. WRONG!! Protective mechanism. What I felt, " I was needed"
How do I realize it is MYSELF that is needed?
Peace