Hi Sax,
If alcohol is causing you problems in your life, then probably, in my opinion, you are an alcoholic. If you're not sure, try stopping drinking completely for a specific period of time - say, a month, and see what happens. If you're not an alcholic, you should have no problem doing this.
I am glad that you're seeking answers. Take a look around and read and learn. There is lots of support here.