I have days when I totally fall apart and just wish life was over. It takes me weeks sometimes to get back on my feet. Sometimes I can't even move out of the chair. Sometimes I have to come and borrow strength and hope from others. I don't think there will be a time when I am a rock of strength. I can forget all I've learned in a minute and have to find it all again. That too is daily work for me and I get very tired. There are times when I want to jump in and rescue just to make it easier on me for a short time. I come here to get reminders why that might not be a good choice. I have many bad days.