i think you did good marle, you shedded some light on those thoughs, now to keep them at bay, the bible says that we are to cast down every thought and imagination that exalt itself against the will of god. this helps me not to hold onto those thoughts sending those negaive vibes. it helps me to heal from them and helps me in my faith walk.
its kind of hard for me to believe that you would even recognize this need to shed light on these thoughts if it wasn't gods timing for you to have the need to do this. stopping now, just thinking out loud i guess