Hi all, first off thanx 4 caring it realy helps to know i got you guys behind me.
I realy have got my head round why I drank yesterday and I have come to terms with it. I think I got caught up in a lie, and I had been so honest about everything, in all my actions for 133 days. The lie I fell for was that I could drink to get even for situations that wern't going my way and in doing so i would be ok, But as you all know we cant.
So now I need to work on myself on some of my character defects to hopefuly not get caught out again. The real bonus was that I felt like crap 2day physicaly and that showed me more than anything what it feels like to poison myself.
I guess ill get some sort of withdrawl but I just wanna get back to where I was. Back to the new freedom I'd found.
inabit chris