on cinder i didn't think that you meant that you were taking him back, it didn't even sound like you had that thought, its just that sometimes i have to remind myself that i can always change my mind if i decide to. i think that i wished that i was as strong and as busy as you. if only i could work, i think that would help a lot.
i think another thing is that i'm so used to talking to my gf or my cousin but these two are sort of toxic to me right now, because of the negativity that they give off. sometimes i need encourageing and not always want to be the encourager. so since i'm not constantly trying to talk them through their depression, or should i say listen to their complaints, i feel kind of bored. i think that i need to find a way to meet new friends. maybe today is just one of those days and i'll have a better day to tomorrow, i sure hope so