I have to laugh because I am thinking of the character that Annette Benning played in American Beauty (one of my famvorite movies). I loved the scene where she was preparing to show the house to buyers and didn't sell it. She cried and kept slapping her own face, Stop it! Stop It! Stop it! If you haven't seen that movie please do. It is a very interesting movie with regard to the roles we play. I also love when Kevin Spacey decides to redefine who he is. I think it's important to bring humor into the quirky heaps we have become. The good news is that it can all change and we are all just one brave decision away from having the life we want. Make a real effort to think before you speak, it works. You are a rose afraid to bloom, but go ahead, your are a beautiful person!