(((((((Rozied))))))))
I, too, have been where your at. Being the mother bear and protecting her young against people one minute, then wanting to feed him to the lions, so I don't have to deal with it anymore, the next.
After a few years, and alot of heartache, I was able to put him out of my home, yes, but I still find myself getting into "his" thick of things, when I shouldn't.
I'm getting better at it, and so will you. Keep focusing on letting go, and know that it's out of your hands.
Sending prayers up to you, and your family today.
From one mom to another.