(((k))) My counsler told me to hold my hands out in fromt of me, palms up. Close my eyes & just breath. Nice & easy, just breath. You will find yourself less tense with yours hands out like that, you aren't clenching anything.
Today I am kind of playing a mind game with myself. My stepdaughter is movng in for awhile next week. ( The youngest, not the married pregnant one) So I have things to do to get her room ready. But I have still been triying to think, ok is today day 5 for AD to be clean? Did she use? Just some of the things my mind can do all by it's self sometimes. SO I am shooting for 30 minuets at a time I am not allowing myself to go there. I get something going, and do not allow myself to guess. Just stay in the moment for 30 minutes. It may sound dumb, but it has helped today. I look forward to a face to face meeting tomorrow morning. Hang in there, we're gonna be ok. Hugs.