Originally Posted by
lost_child 
I'm physically, mental and emotionally a wreck.
It is so painful to see how much damage this disease imposes to our lives. To see nice, clever people becoming "wrecks" (I am one of them) is mind boggling and it hurts. In between us and life is that one, that single, one, first glass of this unspeakable poison. Stronger than compassion would be a message - you also have a weapons / tools to fight. This disease shall be put into the quarantine called abstinence / sobriety and kept there by fighting it off with every breathe you take.
Good luck! So many great people here managed to stop so shall you. Imagine to be like Taz, posting about your seventh months of sobriety!!! And smile, seeing yourself sober and happy. I really feel for you lost_child... you I certainly hope you will feel much better soon...