I originally found the crackreality site in September 2006. I guess I wasn't ready then to see the truth. Back then I still thought my addict/husband was different, I could love my addict/husband enough to fix him.
Today, my addict/husband is still using. He still is functional and has a job. He still blames me for everything (last I checked). Everything I read on crackreality 7 months ago turned out to be true. Every word. I guess we all must go about our recoveries at our own pace. They say hindsight is 20/20, and if I look back and say "if only I had listened 7 months ago I could have prevented so much heartache, especially for my kids". The truth is, I wasn't ready to see, I had to make my journey at my own pace. The truth, the reality the crackreality was/is profound. Facing the truth was the hardest step I ever took.
The truth is crack is dirty, the life of a crack addict is dirty. It's so dirty a crack addict will almost never admit the true extent of their use.