Misty- so glad to hear you're okay.
Liss- Stick to your guns and get rid of that worthless piece of &*$%. You are so much stronger than that. Stand up for yourself. I know you say you love him, but what you are describing is not love. Since that's what you've known since 8th grade, it's probably what you have associated with love. But you being the provider and caretaker, and him being the emotional abuser who will occasionally give you a little something to keep stringing you along is not love. If you can beat booze, which is addictive, you can beat this, which is common sense. Sorry to be so blunt and brutal about it, but you asked.