SaTiT

As a kid I live in a third world. if you didn't do your home work
you would get a spanking in front of the class.

As a child a would build modles, my father came home from work
after a bad day and just stomes on it. I had a burning desire as an adulit to
sabotage my life before somebody stomes on it. I needed that control.

I took an early interest in flight as a child but a wall got in the way.
For the longest time in my life, if i thought about my father i would
always see that wall hitting me and a loud noise, first.

I got beat so damn hard, i pee in my pants and i would get beat some
more for peeing in my pants.

My father would wip the crap out of me if I got a C. I either over achived
or don't do anything, oneway or another i was always get in trouble.
I was never good enough, always never good enough.

I blocked a lot of it out,so I could survived.
I lived in constant fear

I wasn't allow to speak back or say anything.
I sholved whatever I felt inside of me, deep inside of me.
I suffer from depression due to surpressing my emotions.

dad would get me stuff after and episode.
I had a habit of buying crap as an adult just to feel okay.

I tried to commit sueicide at the age of 20