Whine away JC;
By the way, it is not whining. You need to talk. I know what
I saw in my mother in law before I was even married, the change
in her personality, the total self centeredness. She was brilliant,
so beautiful, and gracious when well. I could tell when a change
was coming on....her eyes darted back and forth and she licked her
lips a lot..... a day or two later my father in law would take off on
a bike trip ...he could not handle it and my boyfriend at the time
would have to take care of her. Up all night, singing and dancing,
cursing and praising God, whatever. She would cry in despair. He
would give her meds, and then she would smile at me when he left
the room and spit the pills in the trash can. Then want me to hug
her and cry again. I became terrified of her. When --- was a boy
there was sexual abuse , just exposure, not of an invasive nature.
But the long term effects were tremendous.
Hospitalization would ultimately follow. She eventually gave up on all
meds.
JC: I want to take the time to thank you for letting me
share this.
You see, I am bipolar type I, as she was. I was absolutely frozen
in terror when i was diagnosed 10 months ago. But I surrendered
this just as I did to my addictions and placed all in God's hands.
I am stabilized and carefully monitored monthly by an excellent
treatment team at my local Behavioral Health Center.
I agree with LGLGO7 that you need to focus on your mental
and emotional recovery, but it seems you want to know
what is really wrong with your Mom?
Talk to us, JC, we are listening.
Love,
:
Sherry