Well............I admire you for being honest about yourself. In my opinion, It took you being humble to admit that about yourself. Admitting and recognizing that you sometimes think this way I think would be the first step towards improvement. I struggle with similiar issues about myself. When I get angry I say hurtful things, exposing ones weakness. Once you say something, its out there, you cant take it back. When I'm hurting I want the one who hurt me to hurt just as bad. I can really do damage with my tongue. In anger my words are very sharp. I hate this about myself. I want to learn to walk in love at ALL times. But once I get all fired up I get on a roll. Hopefully my recent experience with my RAH will make me realize the things about myself that I should work on.