Frustrated that I can't let go and find Forgiveness
I'm frustrated with myself and my HP. It has been a little over a year 1/2 since my ex-abf broke up with me and I learned about all the things he had lied about. As much as I pray, read, and get out and live my own life I'm still stuck on him and I hate it. I ask my HP for guidance and to show me/help me understand what it is I'm supposed to learn...so either my HP isn't talking to me or I'm deaf. I know I will remain stuck and if I can't let go and find forgiveness...forgiveness for myself otherwise I'm just going to carry it with me everywhere I go and in everything I do....Ugh how frustrating..... I also hate being filled with such self-doubt.... it carrys over into everything I do now these days.... Currently, I'm all torn up and think there must be something wrong with me that this female friend of mine must not like me or want to be friends with me or have any contact with me all b/c I sent a text message to her yesterday and got no reply....Oh how I need help.