Hang in there Faith.
I had to let my GF go and my imagination did the best of me.
I kept a journal or read as best I could.
I cried if i needed to.
I kept a picture of a woman i love very much in my wallet, When she was clean and sober
It was lonely at times....but it was peaceful.
It took me a while to gather things, i had to get through our home
one conner at a time. It happenped automatic when i was ready to let go.
Each moment she was gone , were moments that i learn to live and
love myself. i actually go comfortable of being single. I found out that
I wasn't too hard to live with and was actaully pretty cool. I moved
funiture and decorated the apt the way I wanted to. I actaully
became more productive at work and my boss took notice to that too.
ya know...I was actually pretty damn happy. Couldn't imagine at 38
that i would be single and starting over again. i set a time limit
for myself , i didn't start dating until after 6 months.
I was ready to move on, and low and behold i had all these damn
crazy women knocking at my door at the sametime and my GF too.
Gee freanken wizzz...it was a test, my exam of sorts.
I've matured in so many ways, i just had to luagh at it all.
Yet i had so much more to learned. lol In this journey of life.
My suggestion is lock you doors , lock all your doors
and the windows too.lol