Don't throw yourself away, just get cleaned up. If your "friends" are true friends tell them you quitting drugs and they will stop bringing the pills around. If they stop coming around and being your friend because you decided to sober up, they aren't true friends anyway, get some new friends.
In the meantime, when you feel good and motivated, go around the house and throw all the pills away. If you don't feel upto this maybe one ofyour friends will take them off your hands?
I have an idea, go to an AA/NA meeting and come back here and post to tell us what you thought of it, OK?