Hell...Mind Over Matter
I tried my hardest, but I dont see myself getting better. Right now I have a loaded handgun, a bottle of whiskey, and a ****** up head. I just cant accomplish anything good. I tried, but every day something happened, like a friend stopping by to give me some pills for no reason other than being nice. How an addict going to stop when that happens, daily? Today I was looking for some floss, and came accross a bottle with 3 HYDROS prolly 3 years old. How god gonna play me like that?? I finally tell people and try, and out of nowhere 3 HYDROS, a drug I dont really care for or ever really take, but being in the state I am, i popped them all at once without thinking. I am screwed... I appreciate the positive support, but I dont know if I'll be here much longer. If its this tough to live on earth, and I feel like i've been in hell for so long, what do I lose matter if I am gone? I am already in hell, may as well go somewhere else.