I have been going over and over the "choice" issue myself and I honestly can't decide what I feel about this.................
My ah tells me that even as he's planning, he doesnt realise he's planning and he's having "stupid thoughts" but is sure up to the minute he does it just about that ........he's not going to use.
This is insane to me which I guess is why the term insanity is used so often...........and after a relapse like this I just looked at him and said..........really so when you drove out to your friends to get money or you went to the bank or when you drove our car to the crack dealer on the nearest corner you could find .............what you were just "thinking about it? BULL!!!
But I'm angry right now......................so my opinion isnt objective......