Dont let guilt and worry rob you of tommorrows strength, I heard that once and everytime I start to beat myself up about something I turned into "my fault" or my "mistake" over what someone else did to themselves I try real hard to remember the 1st sentence of my reply to you. You will need your strength to deal with him and then again it;s ok to let your guard down and not have to be the strong one and go out with your girlfriends and let loose, you did something you called 911 that was the smartest and best thing to do. take care, peace-blackbird