I agree with HK too.
If we try, and are creative, we can find a way to blame ourselves for everything that our addicts do to themselves. Be gentle with yourself.
You are a wife, not a wet nurse. If someone decides to end their life, there is absolutely nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing you can do about it. If someone wants to manipulate the people around them into acting a certain way, they will set up a suicide attempt and then call around and tell people beforehand. (this from someone who has lost two very beloved people to suicide)
Even if you HADN'T been impaired, the right thing to do would be to send the police.
None of this changes the fact that he needs to take responsibility for his own life, and instead he is placing all of the blame on you.
Typical addict behavior. I'm sorry to be harsh, but it's true.
Sorry he's in pain -- if he were in active recovery, getting help, getting clean, this would likely not be an issue. Are you responsible for that too?
Take care of YOU. He is responsible for HIM. You can love him, but you cannot make him love himself...he has to take responsibility for building that, and you can be at his beck and call 24/7 and still he will be sick. Until he tries.
Love,
GL