When I left my XAH back in October, I felt very guilty at first. But you know what? I realized that I had to take care of MYSELF, or I'd lose my mind. I was not abandoning a helpless child, I was getting out of an impossible situation with a 40-year-old man. He's an adult - he can look after himself. During our 12 years of marriage, he always chose drugs and alcohol over me and our children. It was time for me to stop feeling guilty about leaving him. I think HE is the one who needs to feel guilty for a change.