Sweetie, I know it hurts, to the very core of your soul...however, it's not going to get any better any time soon.
He will always be an addict, it's just a matter of whether he is active or non-active.
You may be missing the drama, you are not alone, you have you. We were born alone, and all will die alone.
I am by myself, and I like my company, I am alone, but, not lonely...I was lonely when I lived with ex-abf, and he was in the same room.
It's all a matter of attitude, a negative attitude produces negative results, a positive attitude produces positive results...not my plan, just how it works.
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and go forward, loving you first...now, that will produce positive results...guaranteed, I am living proof.
Hugs,
Dolly