DEar Nuudawn,
I feel as if I could have wriiten this.
I totally relate with having a hard time getting much out of AA.
But here is what I am doing to deal with the fact that my sobriety is the most important thing in my life and that I will not give the power to ruin it over to any person or group of people whose personalities I cannot appreciate, in or out of AA.
1. I come to SR daily and read the varying perspectives of recovery and come to understand more and more every time, about those who may appear obnoxious, aloof, and indifferent.
2.I keep going to meetings, because I am experimenting with the concept that maybe I AM totally selfish, self centered and self important and that I want things in my life...including AA...to contain all of the elements that I deem to be lovely, spiritual and nurturing. For me.
I am trying out being those qualities for others..so I go to GROW.
OOPs. I need to run now.
But consider taking a break, but keeping open