sorry that you are feeling bad today rose, boy do i know what it feels like to feel like you've been betrayed by the very people who are suppose to love you and stand by you in your time of need. its not a good feeling at all. you have a right to your feelings so its good that you are recognizing them and feeling them, and not getting stuck there.
i really think that you are doing so well, considering all you've been through lately. you are showing a lot of strength, i pray that can continue to move forward, one step at a time and you'll get to where you want to be.