Im sure hes right I mean no one wants to be an addict. I am sure its alot of self hate for not being strong enough to say no. Its the drug it just sucks you in so hard to walk away. That first hit is the best then u spend the rest of your time and money trying to find that again. I really doubt hes thinking of u hes thinking about nothing but his drugs of course he might be thinking about what shyte hes going to be in when he finally gets home. He just cant leave, he cant stop, he cant put down the pipe and wont til he is good and ready. Guilt, remorse, self hate sometimes arent as strong as the drugs pull.