Amen and absolutely. I wonder if I should say the things that I want to. I really want to tell her (sister) that she is nut and the using is making her nuttier. I want to shake her and show her what her lifestyle does to us that love her, how it's aging my parents. The toll it takes on all of us. See this is where I have my hard time. It's like I DO understand that it is a disease and when she is drinking that she is really ill, but sometimes I just get so angry. We did not ask for this. We do not think that it is fun or that we should have to endure the hell that we do. But, we do. But yes, i want to tell her and show her. I understand, not the stuff you yell at each other when you are fighting about it. But the really serious stuff. Like, take a trip inside my heart and my head with me for awhile. If that didn't speed up rock bottom, I don't know what would. Love you all.