Thank you- I feel so bad now. I hurt all over. Deep down it is not even about the pot- it's about the trust. How can I love a man whom I can not trust? How can a plan for a future when I am just waiting for the bottom to fall out? How do I trust him ever again? Now HE wants a divorce. HE can't "deal" with me and my mistrust and accusations. HE can't take it anymore. He says he loves me and the kids more than life itself. I don't see him fighting for us. He's not even addressing the idea of therapy. I am so mixed up. One minute I love him and the next I hate him. I'm afraid I will just die of heartbreak. I just want everything to be perfect- but I know they won't be. I am so at a loss. I feel like I am losing my mind. I'm trying to take it one minute at a time- but I find it so hard. I want to just crawl in bed and pull the covers over my head and not see the light of day for a year! Oh, what to do.