i'am so happy for you, i think that your husband is blessed to have you in his life, i know that you've done things that you are not happy about, we all have, but to hear you in your recovery walk is so amazing to me. it would be so much easier if my addict thought like you in regards to owning your own mess and understanding about the situation around you. you seem not only protective of yourself, but you seem to be so protective and understanding of your family and their feelings.
i'm an addict, my hubby's an addict and you just don't hear what i hear in your post, you are one amazing recovering addict to me. just a good example of what an addict in real recovery looks like to me. things can't do anything but get better and better for you. i'm so proud of you, you just keep right on putting one foot in front of the other and you see just how precious you are. still praying for ya.