I think the one problem that I am having is being 25 and say that I will never drink again. Because depending on how long I live, that is a pretty big comitment. It makes it easier to tell myself that I don't have to do anything that I don't want to, I am doing what I choose to do. Even though deep inside I know that this is basically what I have to do. If I ever want to have an enjoyable life, family, future, etc. So I am hoping that at the rehab I will learn that life can be fun without having to always be high on something.