Chero(((HUGS))) I am truly sorry you are feeling so bad. It is so painful and hurtful. I Know. The things I have done to try and manipulate. I've cried begged, lied whatever I could think of I did. I stooped to levels that now I can't believe. Once, I told him I was calling because his son was choking. Lie. Tried to play on his guilt. Didn't work.
You are a bright, caring, loving and wonderful person and very quick witted I might add. some of your post's/replies are very funny. You deserve the best.
Much love to you.