chero i'm sorry that you're going through this... finding something to occupy yourself (being with your own friends and family) will make that much less time that you'll be totally preoccupied with his drinking (and your suspicions of whether or not it's happening) - and keep telling yourself that you can't control it and that he makes his own choices... that's what recently helped me through those rough times.
and read and post on here as much as you want! it always makes me feel so much better
