I agree with fankly I would see if you can go to Fla. The seeds of mistrust run deep. I too have struggled with where do you start to trust when you are a zero? No answers there for me yet.
I try really hard to stay away from following my heart right now because I know that it is emotionally tied to my cah and that causes everything to play with my head. So many lies for me that in my heart I want to believe that as some point they break through and will get better but that remains to be seen in my case.
I wish you luck! Keep us posted.