I've been on meds for bipolar for 18 years. Every once in a while, I get pissed about having to take them and I stop. That NEVER works out well. I think we all have to face it; our brains don't work like other people's and I look at it like this now; if I were a diabetic I'd have to take insulin every day to survive; this is the same thing. Plus, side effects usually diminish after a while. Best of luck to you.