~Scanning the Caller Id to see if it's bad news, because it always is.
~Worrying you'll get that final call, or even worse that you won't because they had no id on them.
~Wondering for weeks, when or if they might ever resurface and what new tragedies might be in store when they do.
~Trying to summon the courage to "Believe" just once more that they really are in rehab and ready to change their lives...and feeling guilty when you just can't believe any longer.