awwww neg, darlin.....i know this is so hard. my xh used to do the same thing, and it would just tear out my heart.
but you are so right when you said....you were right by his side during all this and he still slid down that slippery slope.
you have it so much more together than i ever did at this stage in the game....i just caved, and caved, and caved.
you did awesomely, neg.....you are so very strong and i am so proud of you.
now, do the famous bubble bath thing. do something nice for yourself.
(i used to think....bubble bath???? yea, right, sure. uh-huh. like a freakin bubble bath was gonna fix any damn thing!!!....and then i'd rant on and on about sunshine and lollipops and angels flying outta peoples arses).....but, i did learn to do nice things for myself....and lo and behold....i started feeling worthy of the damned bubble baths. hahahaha
love to you neg
jeri