Penneypoo,
My heart just sank!
"Remember those weekends?? We all experience(d) them, except you are free from the madness, and on the road to peace. I wish I could fast forward ahead and live life without him, because I would rather experience your sadness than mine."
I had those weekends too & from my own personal experience once I learned to detach myself from his drinking my whole world changed all for the good.
Read on detachment - it may help you!
Believe in yourself you can do this!