Crushed,
Hugs going out to you in this tough time.
I agree that you have set your boundaries and now the tough task is to wait and see if he smashes through them. It's miserable, and I have been there. It feels like he|| and I am sending my prayers to you.
Love or no love, you have suffered enough because of his addiction. You don't have to divorce if you don't want to, but please start planning for your own safety. Cash in a safety deposit box, a place to run to if he gets violent, a support system. We can love someone who is willing to hurt us, and who has the ability to do tremendous damage to our lives.....but love them from a distance, from a place of safety.
Love,
GL